There should really be an emergency brake for life. Even a “check engine” light would be nice, for a bit of advanced warning when trouble is imminent. At bare minimum, airbags should come standard, right?
The signs become obvious only in hindsight, when we pick through the rubble to find where it all went wrong. Rather than one origin, one point of failure, an endless array of tiny fissures mar the surface of an otherwise solid foundation. Not cause for alarm by themselves, nothing that could ever bring down a building alone, but together, in concert, they set the stage for a crippling domino effect.
Overworked, under-slept, massively stressed, straining under oppressive deadlines, I still found myself incapable of simply saying “no.” Sound familiar? Each new opportunity sounded better than the last, and how could I possibly turn down good work? Passionate about what I do, I was living the dream, inundated by more jobs than I could handle! Everything was fantastic! Everyday was packed to the max, from the moment my sweet pup jumped on my head at 5am until I collapsed back into bed at midnight. The to-do list was endless, but I loved all of the work. If not for those harsh time constraints, it would have been perfect.
Perfection is a fallacy at best, a dangerous delusion at worst.
Suddenly, but of course, unsurprisingly, the careful cloth I was weaving began to unravel as the stitches became more hurried, sloppy, and periodically missed the mark.
Preparing for the San Francisco World VegFest a mere week after being added to the roster of speakers, I hurried to bake a hundred mini Self-Frosting Peanut Butter Cupcakes to accompany my demo, sharing some basic baking tips out of Sweet Vegan Treats. Sweet and simply, this was easy stuff; a recipe I’d been making with great success for over a decade, to great acclaim. For whatever reason though, everything was going wrong. Perhaps I had been distracted by the photo shoots scheduled for later in the day, or client emails that begged for attention. Pulling the first pan out of the oven, I was shocked to discover that I had forgotten the frosting swirl- The single most important part of the whole assembly! What’s more, my beautiful little cupcakes had transformed into bizarre biscuits, shaped like mittens, of all things. What on earth? I could only ask myself in dismay and disappointment. Where is your head, girl?!
They were ruined, beyond repair. Hastily, I slapped on shoes, taking off at a dead sprint out to Berkeley Bowl, hunting fresh ingredients to begin anew. This could still be salvaged. There was still just enough time…
Violently shaken down to my knees, the pavement suddenly rose to meet me with unforgiving impact. I instinctively gripped my battered knees, but it did nothing to the lessen the tremors. The very bottom has dropped out beneath my feet, as the ground shook angrily below. It was another earthquake, but not just another; it was the big one that everyone had warned about. The catastrophic event that California had been overdue to experience, that we should have expected from the start.
I looked up towards the hills, assessing the damage, when something even more devastating caught my eye. The volcano sitting high on the horizon, long dormant, now spewed glowing cascades of molten lava, thick and syrupy, down across the land. Smothering homes with abandon, the fires began to spread from bone-dry brush along the way, and smoke as thick as grey cotton filled the air. It was coming my way.
Scrambling on top of the nearest car to delay the inevitable, I watched as magma washed away carefully planted succulents lining the streets just ahead, swallowing each helpless plant whole as if they were the salad course before the main meal. I distinctly recall my final thoughts, as the tires began to melt from the sheer intensity of the heat: Well, at least I don’t have to do the cupcake demo tomorrow…
And then I woke up.
Sorry. I hate stories that end up being dreams, too, but this one was so compelling, so perfectly placed, that it was clearly my own “check engine light” flashing.
Thankfully, mercifully, the cupcakes did NOT turn into mitten-shaped biscuits, I did NOT forget the frosting, there was NOT a (massive) earthquake, and I did NOT actually die in a terrible fiery pool of lava. OF course, if you had been at the event, you would have known all this, and also tasted for yourself just how well it actually all came together. By some miracle or more likely dumb luck, I pulled it off at the last minute, and had such a great time at that. Thank you, to everyone who came out, chatted, ate, watched me mix up some batter and banter at the same time. You guys are the reason I survived this insane day!
In case you missed it, I’m delighted to share a little snippet of the day courtesy of the SF VegSociety. Now, you can watch my full demo at your leisure, from the comfort of your own home, with no threat of earthquakes or volcanic eruptions to detract from the experience.
5 thoughts on “Cupcake Wrecks”
So nice to see you in action! You’re such a lovely speaker! What lucky attendees! I’m glad the dream was in fact just a dream. I, too, have stress dreams—always before the academic year, and they, like yours, prevent me from getting to class on time or, like, I’m at home when I realize, “Oh, shoot: I have class!” A lot of times I’m stuck in another country and all the planes are grounded, etc. Hahaha. Anyway, I’m glad it all went your way. Brains are funny. <3
Aw, you’re too kind! It definitely doesn’t come naturally and I hesitated to share here, but I was relatively pleased with this performance, especially given the circumstances! Your support means so much to me.
Let’s both try to keep our propensity towards catastrophic nightmares in check, shall we? They’re not much fun!
What a nice video, and such a cool presentation Hannah:) Wow, good that the dream was not what happened in reality;:D
Loved the video! Fabulous to hear you speak and learned so many helpful vegan baking hints.
Great video, you’re such an amazing baker! Love watching you in action and hope you can make SacTown VegFest!